Good on Planning.....

......poor on execution.  It's a theme I seem to have a problem getting out of.  I've discussed it a little on another blog I contribute to - Operation Gettin' Less Jiggly With It - which is a Biggest-Loser-style challenge I'm involved in.  However, it's not going so well.  Let me elaborate.

I find that I can plan and organize anything better than most people.  Plan dinners - plan an afternoon of fun - plan parties - plan on getting out of bed to go running - plan my lessons for school.  However, I am just not good at actually following through on these plans.  The hardest ones are the ones that take the most dedication and concentration - my work and my workouts. Here's an example:

On Friday, as I was finishing up at work to get out for the weekend, I made a list of all of the things that needed to be done this weekend so that I would be ready for class on Monday.  It's really not all that much, especially since I am teaching three classes, but because I'm doing them for the first time, it takes much more prep time and organizing.  I loaded up my bag, brought it home, and it promptly sat untouched until Sunday, when I finally decided that I needed to get it done, or else I would have nothing to teach today.  It's not that I didn't have any other opportunities to work - in fact, I had plenty of time on either Friday or Saturday to do it - but instead decided to watch a movie and be lazy instead.  I did get most of it done, in two sittings, but I wish I wouldn't have procrastinated - I might have enjoyed watching the Bears game last night more instead of multi-tasking with that and grading papers.  

Another example:  on same Friday, I had planned to get up in the morning before work and go for a run.  It would require me to wake up at 5:45ish, so I would have enough time to run, eat, shower, and make it to work on time.  It's not like it's that early, especially since I don't have to be at work until 8:30, and last year I was getting up at the same time every day to make it to work on time.  When I lay down at night for bed, I remind myself to not be a wimp, that I WANT to get up and work out so I won't be such a fatass.....but when that alarm goes off and I am cozy in bed and tired and the voice inside says, "You can work out later today...you have time", I stay in bed.  Now here's the kicker.  I get home from work (after bringing home my very full bag of work) to run, and think to myself, "The bathroom could really be cleaned, and the floor vacuumed", so I do that, and what do you know?  Suddenly it's dinnertime, I've found other things "more important" to do, and I can't be expected to run AFTER I eat, I'll get sick, right?  Of course. 

I do the same sort of thing with stupid stuff, too, like picking up dry cleaning - "I can do it another time" - picking up my shoes - "I'll get them when I walk back through the next time" - laundry - "I still have clean underwear left" - I could literally name a hundred things.  Why?  Why can't I just SUCK IT UP and motivate myself to do exactly what I want?  Why must that voice inside my head be SO LOUD that it talks me out of what I should do, even when I know it's wrong?  Is it just laziness?  How do I STOP being so damn lazy and do what I want?  Help!